So, recently I came up with a way of thinking about what it is that I do.
I work for my organization.
While I am pretty sure my organization would like me to use the words “with” but for a while now, I have been dropping quickly down the chain from “with” to “for” and touching every now and again on “at”. This is a pretty significant turn for me, as I have long though of myself as a “with” person, merging the goals of the organization with my own, working for mutual advancement. Sometime in the past year, I have moved to “for”; the organization has need of my particular skill set and I am currently willing to provide it.
I think a combination of disillusionment, an awakening to the changed priorities of the organization, and a failure of the organization to deliver the change they expect to be seeing in us has resulted in my great disappointment with the organization. It is not unique, I find myself disappointed in a great many things these days, and I am not unaware of the maxim to examine one’s self if there is a series of difficulties that seem to be centered on yourself.
The new year brings change, and maybe a more personal change for me. I don’t think I have time to spend simply being “at” a space. I want more than this.